Letra de Deathbed

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can´t believe this is the end

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I´ll be home

The year is 1941
I was eight years old and far, far too young
To know that the stories of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother made up for a son

You see, Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the teacher
Mother had sworn he went off to the war
And died there with honor, somewhere on a beach there

But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought like he abandoned me

By ´47, I was fourteen
I´d acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up, yet I still lit ´em up
For thirty more years, like a machine

So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can´t believe this is the end

I can hear the sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things I´d do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I´ll be home

Got married on my twenty-first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It´s easier to be sure you love someone
When a father inquires with the barrel of a gun

The union was far from harmonious
No two people could´ve been more alone than us
The years would go by and she´d love someone else
And I´d realized I hadn´t been loved yet myself

From there it´s your typical spiel
Yeah, if life was a highway, I was drunk at the wheel
I was helpin´ the loose ends all fall apart
Yeah, I swear I was destined to fail, and fail from the start

I bowled about six times a week
A bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
Our marriage had taken a 7?10 split
And along with my pride, the ex-wife took the kids

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can´t believe this is the end

I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things I´d do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I´ll be home

I was so scared of Jesus but he sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs it´s killing me now
And I´ve given up hope on the days I have left
But I cling to the hope of my life in the next

Then Jesus showed up, said, "Before we go
I thought that we might reminisce
See, one night in your life, when you turned out the lights
You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness

"You cried wolf; the tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, ´What have I done?´
You loved that lamb with every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite

"You said, ´Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day, please take me home with you´ "

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can´t believe this is the end

I can hear you whisper to me
"It´s time to leave
You´ll never be lonely again"

But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight
You carried me home

I am the way
Follow me and take my hand

And I am the truth
Embrace me and you´ll understand

And I am the light?
And for me you´ll live again

For I am love
I am love

I am love