Letra de Even if it kills me

I´ve got a lotta things to do tonight
I´m so sick of making lists
Of things I´ll never finish
I´ve lived here for the last 12 years
Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes
But if I had a little more time to kill
I´d settle every little stupid thing
Yeah you´d think that I would

But I´m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I´m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I wonder if I´ll ever lose my mind
I tried hard for awhile
But then I kind of gave up
Winter is killer when the sun goes down
I´m really not as stubborn as I seem
Said the knuckle to the concrete

And I´m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I´m not saying that I´m giving up
I´m just trying not to think
As much as I used to
Cause never is a lonely little messed up word
Maybe I´ll get it right some day
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try
I feel helpless for the most part
But I´m learning to open my eyes
And the sad truth of the matter is
I´ll never get over it
But I´m gonna try
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way

I sure want to get back on track
And I´ll do whatever it takes
Even if it kills me